a new direction

ive went all out here i went to a dub step night and ya know what, in the begining it was alright tunes was blazing and we were talking and all was good. then time went on abit more and tunes got a bit darker yh tunes was realy starting to resinate with man the base was jus right and the beat was jus connecting with man and i was feeling it then i was told that sumnin erta could come into the equastion and me being me having nothing to loose said yeah and get my hopes the man cudnt deliver the extra content as it were and i was let down so i jus got tired and just wanted to go home. my girl was outa the picture for a while that place was packed! i shud mention that by this point i was prety drunk so didnt care i was raving like it was goin outa fashion. I got offered the first time but there were soo many bad omens take that risk at this time jus didnt seem worth it, so i just laowed it because the intention was to not show myself up. time got on and i was getin sober and a bit bored and tired sooo the second time my will had weakend... i took the shit and ya kno wat im prety sure i left the toilet lookin correct but becuase i had no control over my body people automatically started talking to me like im a fool like my mind was right as it stands only alc affects me to the point that i am clueless. i sed some shit to people things i wanted and still want to keep on down low and now they know, whether they believed me or not, i dnt know but i fear for the worst, this way things cant get any worse. after the stuff wore off i felt myself wanting more for obvi reasons but i was almost like i needed it but couldnt get it after the initial urge was gone i was good. im still a bit shakey but i know now how people get suckd into a dark world and sell all there shit and alienate thier friends for this shit.
people are gona look down one me for this if i tell them im sure but i dont care, i had to know im young and dnt have much of addictive attitude to things so im good, besides i dnt kno anyone that sells this shit. this was an interesting night for me i cant really remember anything else relavent to the point atm so im jus gona end this lil session and be on my way
peace xx