alot of time

i havnt been on here in a while and to my reader lol im sorry lack of a comp makes it impossible really, i still dont have one im actually at my nans but i have been keepin track of stuff thats been on my mind.

my plan was to copy, paste, edit and publish but because im kinda being rushed and i got somewhere to be im jus gona copy everything ive written into this box, dont wory its all labeled and titled but unedited, alot of it was done in the morning like stupid oclock cos thats when things hit me for some reason.

sooo without further adue... enjoy i call it

Interesting points of bloging
Text rejection - when you txt something and they dnt reply more or
less something that we've all been thru or done. It's not really
rejection either but I dnt know what else to call it, when I think of
something I'll change it.
But anyway what's the deal with it? It's proclaimed throughout the
world that the English are so polite and well manoured and to a degree
that is quite true, we all swallow a bit of pride just to avoid the
tension however this changes on the road, alot of my friends suffer
from road rage, swear out the window and cut people off if they take
more than a second to get out of the way or move. So when we text
someone and they say something we don't like alot of times we don't
make our opinions heard, what's wrong with telling these people who we
confide in that they crossed the line, surely it's only gona continue
or get worse. If they really are ya mates then why cnt they be told
this I mean it's not even a big deal. It's like going out with
indecisive people they don't mind what they do.... Uh yeah they do cos
if you jus sudenly said ok I'm gona go home then they would care then!
This is to all you indecisive people out there WHEN SOMEONE ASKS YOU
WHAT YOU WANA DO ANSWER THEM! if you can't think of anything ask for a
choice this I dnt mind attitude has to stop, you gota stop takin rides
on other peoples ideas. All this comes from an incident last night. I
was textin and they said they were gona.... Ok we all kno it's a girl
So she said she was gona buy something but wasn't sure how much to
spend and general chit chat, this convo ended when I said I want first
peek haha. Now I dno if I'm Reading into this too much cos I got
nothing else to ocupie my mind or if she was pullin that ooookay Zach
calm down that's enough. Feel free to shed some light.


Baby dolls are evil - is baby born having a deeper affect than we
think? I was cleaning the you and me aisle at tru and it hit me all of
a sudden a great inspiration for being a mother must come from
somewhere it doesn't just pop out of no where it could be like a gene
that lies dormant for years. I began thinking bout it when someone at
work who hails from London said to me that there are alot of young
girls here with babies and kids. She seemed shocked at what a lot of
southamptons people see as normal. Then I thought as I was cleaning up
the doll aisle that this must be a starting point! The amount of crap
you can buy for a childs fake baby is unreal nappies, shoes, multiple
outfits, transportation units like push chairs and cars I realy think
this is having some affect on our kids it must be!
It's like some kind of secret obsession or the first time you have a
new tastey food. Cos sometimes you have new food when your out and
won't have it again for years.
I generally think that kids grow up playin with dolls and this whole
look after the young thing jus lays dormant getting stronger inside,
waiting for you to be confronted with the choice. Living off the
government for the rest of your days or reaching for the sky?
If I jus put thinks in black and White it will get my point across
easier although seem harsh, the chavy girls fell pregnant during and
after the last year of school and as far as I kno they kept the kids.
Now I personally think they were idiots, I didnt care in skl because
they weren't my problem. But I really don't want to think that the
mentality of 16yr old girls is if you fall pregnant right now you
shouldn't get rid of the baby because it's harsh. These girls that
fell pregnant were pretty and smart, they messed about in class cos it
was fun but if they actually tried the result always was good work. So
I know they're not stupid, I jus dnt understand why they feel getin
pregnant and keeping it is the right thing to do, do you really wana
no do you really think you cud be with the same guy from skl until
your old? It's a rare case these days and the chav kind lack the
stability and will power.
So I ask you, do you think mothering a fake baby that crys, blinks,
moves and wets it self having some kind of effect on our young women.


Inteligence = destruction - humans are destined to destroy each other.
Here's my time to get all apocaliptic on you none of the 2012 bollocks
I'm talking about people jus being to dam smart for their own good!
A dogs life a cats life any animals life is so simple and for the most
part it's easy too but that's mainly we create the conveniences for
them. But anyway it's simple get up, eat, play, lounge, eat some more,
lounge some more, go for a walk, lounge again and then sleep. Simple.
A cats life is more or less the same really and in the wild it's
slightly alterted obviously! And this is where it ties in with us, an
animal doesn't really want more than it really needs, there's no kill
it now save it for later there's no want for new toys because there
must be something out there. Inteligence is our biggest flaw, we can
create word peace but really if we didn't turn our backs on them in
the first place then this problem wouldn't have happend right? and
rockets and submarines why is there such a need to explore, you don't
see aliens come here to live with us or fish walk around in water suits.
The problem with inteliegence is it creates curisity and that leeds to
discovery and Leeds to want, now the problem with want is that you
always want more what you have jus isnt enough. got a car now i want another one, hes got a gun like mine! i want a bigger one then he wants the bigger one than yours and then it gets to a point where we have guns that more or less cause MAD (mutually assured destruction)

it seemed like more but obvi wasnt, ill try and keep on this more and more but i dno work comes first these days then if i got that rare combo of money and time its friends next.

hit me on the FB if you wish

peacexx

To The One That Cared

I jus wana give luv to the one I call squeak. She one if them ppl I dnt get to see all that often and becuase of that when we do link it's kinda like on and off convoersation, in my books it's lame. She went away to Egypt a while back and before she left I kept buggin her for a gift I was 50/50 bout it, I wanted one but I wasn't gona make a scene if I didn't get anything. About 2 days before she left we had this arguement over something so small and trivial, I forget wat it is it was that pointless but when she got bk all wat ever it was that had us mad was gone and all was right in the world and needless to say I got my gift. I wanted an ankh and I got it, I was overly psyched but even more happy that despite leavin on dodgey ground she still got me a sumsum. And this leaves me to my point, everday I wear my ankh I feel like a ray of light is shining on me. Something good always seem to happen or something that's gona help me do better and even if it's hard work it jus outs me on the right track to doing a beter job. It may be lame to think like that but I hold faith in my ankh that pushed through the hate and now rests easy round my neck. I think that everyone needs someone or something to believe in. Religion has to many holes I can't blindly follow a book that leads me to live my life in a way that I dnt want to. And as for someone well I trusted someone once and they still hold my secrets, I still do trust them but time has made our friendship stale and the circumstances we meet under these days jus dnt lead me to believe that shits gona evolve from wat once was not wat now is. So I believe in my ankh, people smile more, good things happen, life doesn't seem so hard, that thing I wish I didn't or did do doesn't bother me cos there ain't no use in crying over spoilt milk. Rosie... :-) thnx a simple gesture has made my life easier to take in. I appriciate big things most def, but the little things mean more to me. A genuine I'm so glad to see you hug over something that costs money, drawn attempt of my face over a new watch a photo of me and a mate over a new iPod

dynamic entry

my attempt at making my own music just didnt work, i tried but it seems that i jus wasnt made to do this kinda thing, its all very well spitting into my phone at random times of the day but really wats the use if i cant put that into a song or get it down in note form. i havnt given up yet, ive just taken a fatal blow is all. i have however decided to take on a bunch of new tasks or something other than hanging out with my mates and working. really wana make a daft punk discovery helmet! but as far as i know you cant buy them online you have to make them which is a good way to take up time that i have to waste. unfortunatly i have absolutley no idea what im doing. i figure i can start off with a biker helmet or dirt bike helmet, but the problem arises when i try n figure out how to fill it up with lil LED lights the daft punk guys themselves have a power cord which leads to a power pack but i want that to be internal however since this is such a big task for me thats the last of my problems.

another taks i just took on is to help my mums garden look good for the summer or at least presentable ya know i forget what it looks like but im preti sure its jus heeps of mud and over grown bushes (hahahaha bush) its not my garden so i dnt have plans for it, jus think it would be nice if it were to be in the kinda shape that if something happend it wouldnt take ages to do.

Im been lookin at christmas, i dnt really like to celebrate halloween so i jus kinda bypass it.

im thinkin something personal this year things aint cheap and i dont think i have cheap taste so something home made me thinks this year, put that 1 creative cell to work once more and produce something nice for my peoples.

amy im sorry but there is no drama in my life this time i have a good sleeping pattern now so i dnt have all these odd thoughts in my head about life and stuff. i think im going out sat night so maybe ill think of something then but until then its the regular.

painfuly lonelly but dnt talk about it cos no one wants to hear it plus i dnt like talkin bout it, it totally bums me out, i want alot of stuff that i cnt afford. im trying like to hell to pay off this mother fucking!!!!!!!! beDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!! so i can dash it, i found a buyer me thinks so soon it will be out of my life woop. until then PEACE.xx

champz and weed snippet

that flipin post almost didnt go up! i was about to flip out if it didnt beleive it OMG ITS 1.30!!! i need to get ot bed got flipin work aaaaahhh

celebrate that with my champz and weed

is it bad that i want to better myself for the wrong reasons? this came to mind after i asked myself is it stupid that i want someone to inspire me to do more....... in my sleep deprived state that actualy made sense, seeing it in front of me now it jus looks retarded! disgaurding that comment read on.

Ive asked myself this question quite a few times and each time i come to the same conclusion but i come to it differently each time. because as we all know its all about number 1, you! if your not happy then things have to change. and i think its fair to say that this is the rule for life it happens at college, you dont like the course so you change it, it happens at work, it happens with objects and food. If you dont like something then it changes right? well why doesnt this apply to relationships? why do people stay in a relationship with someone that they have fallen out of love with. is the prospect of being alone soo frightening, perhaps its the effort of trying to find another girl, i dnt know i think that said person has got used to someone always being around or having someone to hang out with. because you have a relationship like this with the rents do you not? but you grow out of the parents because well... theyre your parents, you got things you got desires that they cannot fufill so you look else where for company because you can, you know there is someone else better out there.

so then why does this not work with other people? why can you not tell someone its not working, why is it soo dam hard. ill tell you why because falling in love with someone is a joke its all there for you to see you fall in love with someone, love is like a pit you just keep falling and the longer you leave it the harder it is to climb out of that pit. at this point i sound like a heartless joyless knob whos just had his heart broken well not true because heres wat i believe in, i think that you should admire and respect someone. respect that they can look after them selves, that they like spending time with you and with other people and most importantly respect that they might have bigger dreams than what you have in mind. treasure that time you spend together because when its gone its gone and tomo it wont be the same but you can always get off on how good a time it was. I say this because you can only have so much respect for someone before it becomes and obsession, after that its the whole pit theory again.

if it all goes wrong this wont protect you but i like to think that it helps, because you werent so dependant on someone.

gota bunch of other crap on my mind and that ill come at you with, in the mean time im gona end this on a music vibe.

this charming man - the smiths (argh theres something in my eye WHHHHYY) is a great song i gota give props to mike once again for turnin me to it, i think it would do well in the charts if someone sang it again. bought another pair of skull candy headphones my 4th pair!! they havnt lasted me longer than a month with the execption of my full metal jackets that my lodger broke (and WILL replace) uk grime is havin a big effect in the way i feel about music, all this electro and hip hop is kinda buggin me i need to get out there and find something new. thats wat i always say but now im starting to think that maybe i shud take a break. i wana write my own shit but the problem there is i got too many beats in my head at one time and when i try and get it down the beat changes. everytime i come up with a good beat to spit im in a public place by myself and look dumb. argggh (i be a pirate)

(BIG FUCKING SIGH) LIFE!!! why does everything feel so trivial? is it just me or does lifes problems not seem so bad in comparison?? hrmmm ponder on the loo

p.s. not proof read

peace.xx

hey hey

expect lots of spelling mistakes during this entry, ive been drinkin so to an extent its serious stuff.

first of all ive come to the extent that i need ti be alne fir a while to collct my thoughts also change my view on lfe and people, todat 2 women stared at me and ya kno wat i did, i jus looked bk blank and then looked away at the the time it didnt go thru my head that i shud have done something more even a smile i think woud have surficed but i remained gaumless and and twat! i see no one has left a comment about my youtbe links so ya kno wat ever, my thing on life is dont takt it so seriously. dnt take life so seriously that my beliefe in life except in my case i dnt take a dam thing seriously. argh its ment to be a blog lets get onto something more interesting no one wants to read about my feelings blegh its not man like hrm.

im totally a trekie i luv it i record it on my freeview box thats how lame i am and i not affraid to say it. my sweet amy goes to kent tomo and im sad aout that because we havnt had a day together since i been back we been out a few times but i much prefer one on ones cos thats when pple come into there own i think plus i can look at my mates in a different eye espec if they are new mates.

ahhh recently came out to someone told em i fancied them and for a while i though i did, bit over the weeks ive been thinkin bout them a quite a bit and i dont! they are prety no doubt if i got involed ( thats to say if i cud be ivolved im not prety enuf so im not :-p) in a situation it wud be too awkward. so ive come to the conclusion that i want them to be happy i want to be the one to be trusted, the comforter if you will. only a hand ful know about my situation but for those who know will read this and get it (i hope)

i dnt need sex abd closenes to be happy jus as long as im wanted i can be happy with wat i got, my hapiness is at an all time high its only when i want more and that i realised i have more than the rest that i get a bit upset. ahhhh this isnt a blog this is a realisation for me. im too much of a free spirit to be stucj to one person, but thaths to say if i can even get one person, not possibl im socially retarded. one of those things i missed whilst always listening to my music. gues it woild help if i had an ambition. hrmm

if someone wud give me a chance id like to think id make a good man, hahahaha sadness, admitting that last bit hurts deep real deep. try to forwrd myself in the girl front by i always manafes to do something stupid. my man mike got it on loc knows wat to do doesnt always work out to his advantage but ya kno hes always got something to talk about i got nothing. hrmm my life argh.

id say its adma good thing men arw gd at hiding their feelings in some cases. this is affecting too much of my life atm so i feel i got do something about it.

argh gota get up for work soon time for brd come bk when im sober.

YouTube squared

youtube is evolving, i did notice about 3 months ago that they have support for HQ videos and as of late have supported HD but rally im waffling we all know this, but if you got an old comp screen like i do HD jus wont work, i know what ya thinkin it not dam good and unfortunatly im not gona show you how to get around this, this is all jus more waffling.

no this entry is about tell you what i have been introduced to, one of my peoples hannah street showed me a sick link. www.yooouuutuuube.com you paste in the URL link into the apropriate field and watch as the screen splits into something like 16 x 24 little screens and each line plays about 3 frames over and over but eventuall changes, it really is one of the tripiest things ive seen no thats a lie but its still prety tripy. jump on that when you get a chance. the best video i found for that is an alice in wonderland video, ill leave the URL at the bottom of this entry.

so thats two new(ish) things the last one which now thinking about it should have been my second choice, is www.youtube.com/xl which really is YouTube in its rawest form, know wat your looking for and click and it loads so fast. word of warning dont go on here if you dont know wat your looking for cos it may take a while to find.

alot of you may read this and kno this already, anyone know of any others leme know id love to see wat else they can do with onlines video.

alice i have this song by the way so if you want me to hook you up leme know and we cud do bidness. peace xx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAwR6w2TgxY

EErie Mystic Mind

mystic mind set travel at warp 8, flash back to my very first taste of hash cake.

iiii dont remember my last week. i remember coming home alot in the day and talkin to my lodger and he would ask me wat i was doing in the evening, and the answer was alwasy the same, im going out, everday and night since wednesday last week im goin out.

at which point it makes sense that i dont remember wat i did last week however it wasnt messy. i seem to reach a point where i get side tracked or change venue and all manor of drinking just goes out the window. its easy on the pocket admitedly but only to a degree cos im broke, waiting for my bank statement to come thru to see wat the hell happend! moving on something may actually be developing in the life of zach thats not jus day to day crap, we will have more on that as the story develops.

my ipod doesnt work properly, for some reason everytime i click on an app or play certain bought songs it wont play them its odd. i suspect ive blocked my ipod some how as i keep gettin emails from them iForgot i believe is the name and it bugs me. sometimes i wonder if all this crap is really worth it, then i think yeah it is because it makes for a more interesting life. we like tellin people our problems sometimes and we like hearing others to a certain extent cos it makes some of us think phwar glad im not in their shoes!

ive been listening to a lot of radio recently and ive heard some really good songs, 2 in particular stood out.

1st the day i died by just jack, its a sad song and the video is kinda weird in a good way but the song has a really nice beat to it, it kinda makes you smill and think everything is alright til you actually listen to the lyrics.

2nd uprising by muse, its like a fusion of Dr Who and Queen, kinda nice if you let it play in the background it groes on you... well it did me and im diggin it. find it, jump on that real soon like. peace xx

1st entry

inspired by miss kayleigh james i though id give this blog thing ago, i tried to do it in france and for a little while i was successful but then i gave up and started reading a book and playing ps3 - like ya do.

This week my man alex is down from bristol for a couple days, i went up to see him last week and because the dang fool didnt have a phone there was a comunication error and needless to say we didnt link. not a good start, i walked around bristol city for a bit and then headed back home because it was raining and i found a hole in my shoe.... not good times.

Went to town today with my mate alex we call him canada because its where hes from and in fance there were two alex'. we went to town to link my friend rachel for jus a hang out sesh, in town we linked steveo and seb. we split up and i went off with rachel for shit and they guys went off to do there thing and we all linked a little later after rachel left.

round about now im find that my music taste is all over the place and i dont think it will ever settle in one place anymore my ears have been opened to what i call white music and now i like it, i like it alot people like bloc party and the pigeon detectives id happily listen to and enjoy.