To The One That Cared

I jus wana give luv to the one I call squeak. She one if them ppl I dnt get to see all that often and becuase of that when we do link it's kinda like on and off convoersation, in my books it's lame. She went away to Egypt a while back and before she left I kept buggin her for a gift I was 50/50 bout it, I wanted one but I wasn't gona make a scene if I didn't get anything. About 2 days before she left we had this arguement over something so small and trivial, I forget wat it is it was that pointless but when she got bk all wat ever it was that had us mad was gone and all was right in the world and needless to say I got my gift. I wanted an ankh and I got it, I was overly psyched but even more happy that despite leavin on dodgey ground she still got me a sumsum. And this leaves me to my point, everday I wear my ankh I feel like a ray of light is shining on me. Something good always seem to happen or something that's gona help me do better and even if it's hard work it jus outs me on the right track to doing a beter job. It may be lame to think like that but I hold faith in my ankh that pushed through the hate and now rests easy round my neck. I think that everyone needs someone or something to believe in. Religion has to many holes I can't blindly follow a book that leads me to live my life in a way that I dnt want to. And as for someone well I trusted someone once and they still hold my secrets, I still do trust them but time has made our friendship stale and the circumstances we meet under these days jus dnt lead me to believe that shits gona evolve from wat once was not wat now is. So I believe in my ankh, people smile more, good things happen, life doesn't seem so hard, that thing I wish I didn't or did do doesn't bother me cos there ain't no use in crying over spoilt milk. Rosie... :-) thnx a simple gesture has made my life easier to take in. I appriciate big things most def, but the little things mean more to me. A genuine I'm so glad to see you hug over something that costs money, drawn attempt of my face over a new watch a photo of me and a mate over a new iPod