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my attempt at making my own music just didnt work, i tried but it seems that i jus wasnt made to do this kinda thing, its all very well spitting into my phone at random times of the day but really wats the use if i cant put that into a song or get it down in note form. i havnt given up yet, ive just taken a fatal blow is all. i have however decided to take on a bunch of new tasks or something other than hanging out with my mates and working. really wana make a daft punk discovery helmet! but as far as i know you cant buy them online you have to make them which is a good way to take up time that i have to waste. unfortunatly i have absolutley no idea what im doing. i figure i can start off with a biker helmet or dirt bike helmet, but the problem arises when i try n figure out how to fill it up with lil LED lights the daft punk guys themselves have a power cord which leads to a power pack but i want that to be internal however since this is such a big task for me thats the last of my problems.

another taks i just took on is to help my mums garden look good for the summer or at least presentable ya know i forget what it looks like but im preti sure its jus heeps of mud and over grown bushes (hahahaha bush) its not my garden so i dnt have plans for it, jus think it would be nice if it were to be in the kinda shape that if something happend it wouldnt take ages to do.

Im been lookin at christmas, i dnt really like to celebrate halloween so i jus kinda bypass it.

im thinkin something personal this year things aint cheap and i dont think i have cheap taste so something home made me thinks this year, put that 1 creative cell to work once more and produce something nice for my peoples.

amy im sorry but there is no drama in my life this time i have a good sleeping pattern now so i dnt have all these odd thoughts in my head about life and stuff. i think im going out sat night so maybe ill think of something then but until then its the regular.

painfuly lonelly but dnt talk about it cos no one wants to hear it plus i dnt like talkin bout it, it totally bums me out, i want alot of stuff that i cnt afford. im trying like to hell to pay off this mother fucking!!!!!!!! beDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!! so i can dash it, i found a buyer me thinks so soon it will be out of my life woop. until then PEACE.xx